a year can change you

a year can change you | Journey for JessiA lot can happen in a year.  2015 has been my year that is without a doubt. I have grown in so many ways and really nailed down what I stand for and who I want to strive to become.  Of course, I am going to give you all a run down of how exactly how I have changed for the better this year, and you will get to see fun pics of some highlights of this year’s adventures with my friends, but to leave it at that would just be unfair.  Unfair because I am not the only one on this planet that has changed this year.  Every one of us has had an adventurous year for certain. Continue reading

a relationship post

a relationship post || Journey for Jessi

As of late, I have been hearing a lot of conversation about relationships.  I hear a tidbit here and there, walking to campus, in classes, from my sorority sisters, from my peers, in passerby conversations, all twenty-somethings and all wanting to be in a relationship with someone “before it’s too late.”  Too late for what may I ask?  So many people it seems are desperately seeking someone to love these days, but out of fear.  Fear of being alone for the rest of their lives.  Trust me, I understand this place.  I have been in and out of that specific place myself.   Continue reading

two steps back for four forward

two steps back for four forward || Journey for JessiSometimes when you are busy making heaps of progress, you forget to look back to reflect on how far you’ve come.  When striving for a goal, of course you want to head in the forward direction, but sometimes you have to go backwards to jumpstart yourself.  This concept holds true for all aspects of life: fitness, nutrition, health, heart, happiness, etc.  That is where I am at this current moment.  Without realizing, nor exactly volunteering, I took a few steps backward recently and this is what I discovered…  Continue reading

a makenzie restoration

✝ Makenzie will never be forgotten. She was such a role model both in dance and life.  Makenzie’s story and legacy, the Stocker family and Makenzie’s best friend Caitlin have all helped me in dealing with my own personal grief with Jessi.  They taught me to “turn my mourning into dancing” and showed me that I can get through this.

- adding value and leadership to those around me.

61767397100The dreams about her have subsided. I don’t think about her everyday as I have in years past and I’m needing to play old audio to remember her voice. Six years ago today, my oldest daughter, Makenzie — who is now my youngest — was invited into heaven.  “Six years” is a long time as I think about all that has happened since.  Great things.  Hard things.  Things to celebrate and things to mourn.  

As I spend today in the back corner of a small-town coffee shop, I think about the word “restoration.”  More-so, I think about what it takes to be restored.  Brokenness first.  Surrender second.  Expertise third.  Time last.  Then, restoration births new life.  That’s God’s way.  He takes my broken and hurting heart for the loss of my child and calls it to surrender.  He reaches out and holds my surrendered hands first to comfort, then…

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austin adventures

austin adventures || Journey for JessiThis weekend, my sister and I headed up to Austin to celebrate my future sister-in-law’s bachelorette party and festivities.  It was so much fun and we were lucky to have nice weather.  If you have not heard, Houston has been flooding pretty badly and pretty much all of Texas has been hit with some serious storms.  Pretty much everything we did centered around the outdoors like grilling and playing games on the patio, going to various wineries and BBQ for lunch, to walking around 6th Street bar hopping the night away.  It was great meeting all of the friends and family that I get to see again come July for the wedding–I can’t wait! Continue reading

finishing for jessi

finishing for jessi || Journey for Jessi

So I know I have been MIA these past few weeks.  I can go ahead and blame finals and all of the other end-of-semester chaos that is really quite expected by now, but I am not going to.  I know of a few low priority things I can put on the back burner when I have a lot going on, but I do not want this blog to be one.  It acts as a huge stress reliever actually and allows me an outlet to honestly whatever I feel I need to let out (that mostly being my love for food and fitness that gets suppressed by the engineering world–but that’s another story).  As my first day back to my blogging world, I find nothing more suiting than to share how my half marathon went this past Sunday.  The same half marathon I devoted to running for Jessi. Continue reading

spring flings

spring flings||Journey for JessiAs I have probably mentioned before, Spring is my favorite season.  I love Easter, getting outdoors, the sunshine, the flowers, etc.  This post is just my ode to Spring and what I do to get out and enjoy it.  When I moved to Colorado a few years ago, my outlook on Spring shifted slightly–snow?? Really??  Oh well, even random snow storms can’t dull my Spring spirit.
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